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Monday, June 28, 2004
there's this crazy wind tunnel in the building today. you can hear the whooshing sounds of the wind in the stairways and doors are closing funny (ie: not closing all the way). then when you open the door beside it (in the case of double doors) the not-fully-closed-door slams shut. this all kind of puts an eerie spin on the building today, especially with the cloudy weather that doesn't seem to know what its doing or which way its going. i am very tired today. and im planning on staying up to watch the election results come in (i'd really like to stay up and watch and find out who wins, whether or not i can stay up that late is a bit iffy). good thing i don't really have anything to do at all tomorrow so i can mozy in kind of later than usual, if i so wish. i wrote a letter to someone today, im planning on dropping it in the mail on my way home. then i have to stop off at zehrs (i need pizza sauce) because i am going to make a pizza for dinner tonight. mmmm. actually, im going to stop off at home tonight and see what i need to make said pizza before heading off to zehrs, im not sure if some of my vegetables have turned or not. this past weekend was girls' weekend at the cottage! uber fabulous! so much junk food and fabulous things, lots of painting, and some sore joints. sadly, at age 22, i think i'm becoming arthritic which is rather unfortunate. for now, i think im going to chalk up the pain to the fact that my joints were just cold. yes. denial is such a great place. :P i could honestly fall asleep *right now*. if only i wasn't in lab...
Thursday, June 24, 2004
this is certainly an interesting read on image construction and perception in politics. i must say i quite enjoyed it.
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | matthew good - alert status red i don't know what it is with my horoscopes, but they know me today. like, *know* me. "sometimes just wearing headphones can block out the maddening crowd." "The world is so frustrating sometimes. Each time we begin to feel as if we are finally starting to make progress, something awkward crops up. Focus — not on what's getting in your way, but on the best way to carry out your mission." yours is even pretty good today, too: "There is urgent work to be done. There is even money to be made, or to protect, before someone else gets it out of you. And the ubiquitous emotional struggle is always there for you, too. It may be tense now, but eventually you will be very, very pleased with yourself." lesigh. it is true: you really don't realize what you have until there's a suggestion of not having it. im lucky. and im sorry. :(
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
from the toronto star, specifically, david olive's election blog: "You bring forward these rights issues to avoid the critical issues of scandal." - Harper in last night’s debate. 40 reasons to hate bush (the president. not the other one. dirty dirty people.) from punkvoter.com 1. the national debt under bush jr. has increased so drastically that the average american's estimated share of national debt will be an astronomical $24 000, compared to just $500 when dubya first took office. 2. under bush jr., there are now 43 million americans without health insurance. 3. responsible for an unemployment rate of 6%. there are now 9 million people out of work in america, 3.3 million more than when bush took office. 4. he cut healthcare benefits for war veterans. 5. bush jr. deserted his unit during vietnam and was reported AWOL for over a year from his assigned unit: the texas air national gaurd, or as its referred to by other military outfits, the 'champagne division'. 6. despite a 13% unemployment rate among those aged 16-24, bush jr. proposed to eliminate youth opportunity grants -- a program that provides job training to the nationa's youth. a $225M program in 2002 is now being done away with so bush can have more money for iraq. 7. he cut funding for $375,000 low income college students and reduced pell grant amounts to such a severe degree that it effectively caused 84 000 students to no longer be eligible for pell grants. pell amounts have been overall reduced for 1.5 million students...its safe to say that the bush daughters aren't eligible for financial aid, so this won't affect the opulent lives of anyone bush jr. may know. 8. withdrew from the international criminal court. 9. first president in US history to refuse united nations election inspectors (during the 2002 elections). 10. all-time US (and world) record holder for the most corporate campaign donations. 11. the bush administration had twice as many FBI agents fighting the drug war than fighting terrorism prior to 9/11. even after 9/11, more than 2000 FBI agents are wasting their valuable time assigned to the war on drugs. 12. his proposed "free trade" agreements would result in the loss of US jobs to foreign markets and the exploitation of third world workers. 13. john ashcroft. 14. he has taken 11 official executive actions to undermine reproductive rights. how long will it be before a woman is stripped of her right to choose? 15. failed to fulfill pledge to get osama bin laden 'dead or alive'. 16. wasted federal resources of a PR trip to baghdad where he staged a thanksgiving meal at 6 AM with troops that were screened based on their political affiliation. and the turkey? it was a prop. 17. his refusal to fire - or even reprimand - lt. jerry "our god is bigger than their god" boykin. perhaps its because boykin said of the president "george bush was not elected by a majority of voters in the united states. he was appointed by god. he's in the white house becuase god put him there. ed note: he's in the white house because his brother put him there by rigging the florida election. 18. after sending troops off to die in an unjust and unprovoked war, he still has yet to attend any soldiers' funerals. 19. his shameless nepotism for the rich and powerful. elizabeth cheney (daughter of ol' dick) got hooked up with a cool gig at the state department where she was in charge of the $129M middle easte partnership initiative and then was moved over to daddy and uncle dubya's campaign payroll. 20. he dropped his dog on its head. 21. bush jr. is the first president in US history to enter office with a criminal record. 22. bush jr. has set the all-time record for most people worldwide to simultaneously protest a leader (10 million people), shattering the record for protests against any person in the history of mankind. 23. he slashed funding to the 'violence against women' act. 24. he has invaded and occupied two countries at a continuing cost of one billion dollars a week. 25. he appointed charles pickering, a notorious segragationist from mississippi, as a federal judge and suspiciously did so on martin luther king day. 26. bush has spent over 100 billion on iraq, leaving states to face the largest budget crises in decades and forced tocut off public services; now with the federal deficit at a new high, bush jr. wants to award more tax breaks to the wealthy. 27. under new bush legistation (the clear skies initiative), power plants are allowed to emit triple the amount of highly-toxic mercury into the environment. 28. bush jr. failed to protect 3 million acres of the tongass national forest from logging. the tongass has the largest concentration of bald eagles on earth and has already lost 700 square miles to logging with 33 more loggin permits pending. not even the sanctity of our endangered national bird can compete with bush campaign contributions provided by the forest industry. 29. he is on pace to have taken more vacation than any president in history, including a 28 day vacation right before 9/11. bush jr. has taken 6 months of vacation in total...do you anyone that gets 6 months of vacation? 30. he pulled out of the kyoto agreement on global warming, which had been agreed upon by 178 other countries. 31. bush jr. is endorsed by fundamentalist pat robertson who claims that god told him bush will win re-election and that "it doesn't make a difference what bush does because god is blessing him". bush keeps some great company, b ut keep in mind robertson was also the nitwit that blamed the 9/11 attacks on gays and suggested that we "nuke" the US state department. 32. he set the record for the most executions by any governor in american history. 152 in total; some of whom were mentally disabled. 33. he has repeatedly stonewalled the public investigation into 9/11. 34. bush jr. declined to fully fund the AIDS initiative after promising to do so. the final cuts that resulted were over $2 billion. 35. he still suggests that homosexuals are "sinners" and i pushing legislation that would forbid gay partnerships and deny fundamental civil rights on a national and local level. 36. choked on a pretzel and nearly lost his life while seated in front of a TV. 37. bush jr. has gone to great lengths to prevent investigations of his friends at enron and halliburton. more time and money was spent investigating the monica lewinsky affair than has been spent investigating one of the biggest corporate rip-offs in history. 38. bush jr. has set the record for the fewest amount of press conferences by a president since the advent of television. 39. responsible for $521 billion budget deficit -- less than four years after inheriting a $200 billion surplus. 40. he has made repeated attempts to legalize oil drilling in the national wildlife refuge. i just saw an ad for a movie in my yahoo mail inbox. it looked interesting, so i clicked on it. and watched the preview.. and now, i really want to see it. its a MAJOR chick flick, called 'the notebook', but it looks really interesting, and its got ryan gosling, a london kid, in it. and it actually looks really really good. so i really want to see it. im bored. but at least i have stuff to do today. stuff that i know i can do today. even if it means im starting over from the beginning. again. time to surf the net some more!
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
another wake up at 5 am. another sleepy process of getting ready. another walk to school at 6 am. another 6:30am arrival, only to find out............ my culture isn't grown enough. again. looks like another reason to quit. :S
Monday, June 14, 2004
SO EXCITING! the sky is WICKED dark to the south of me, and there's not only a severe thunderstorm warning, but there's a TORNADO warning too! HOT DAMN i LOVE inclement weather!!!!!!!!!! :D i just hope it doesn't pansy out like it usually does! wo0t! edit june 15 8 am: it totally pansied out. weather is an asshole.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
i feel like being very girly tonight. and i don't know. but this never happens. so i think i should just go with it. :) currently listening to: edge 102 | the beasties - ch check it out so i hauled my ass in here this morning to do my large scale library transformation. fabulous. it was early, but the earlier i start, the earlier i finish, so it all pays off. up at 5:40, out the door at 6, in the lab at 6:30.......... and my overnight starter culture didn't grow. (i do an overnight culture, let that grow, and use that to inoculate my real cultures for the transformation). so with no growth in the overnight culture, there is obviously no transformation to do, since i can't start my cultures. so im autoclaving a new flask, starting a new overnight culture, and i'll transform tomorrow. ugh. and i wanted tomorrow off after being here both saturday and today. but i guess not. so tired. :\
Saturday, June 12, 2004
currently listening to: the killers so i just got back from renting a movie. on the walk home, when i was willing myself to become gloriously lightheaded and dizzy and remembering just how much i love that feeling, i thought about what it would be like to not care. and i realized its a total trade-off: you lose the excitement and the passion about certain things, which is bad. but at the same time, nothing bothers you, and you can go through life completely unaffected. everything would just roll off your back, and according to you, everything would be fine, because nothing would matter. then, i thought, 'how great would it be if you could just care about certain things and not care about others?' but then, i realized that i don't think that's possible. its not something that i think i can do, this 'not caring' thing. i guess the moral of the story is that i wish i could just not care on a whim. just at moments when i want to not care. but i can't. i don't think i know of anyone who can. and while that sucks, it does allow for a much richer and fulfilling life. so i guess im stuck with it. instead, lyrics are ruling me. the sarah harmer obssession i had a while ago. man she's good. whats the good in being so sensitive? can i trade this thin skin for a shell? the killers. these guys definitely know how to rock. this futuristic rock sound, almost. i dig it. we had a fight on the promenade out in the rain, she said she loved me, but she had somewhere to go, she couldn't scream when i held her close and i swore i'd never let her go... heaven ain't close in a place like this, anything goes in a place like this... thornley/big wreck. good canadian rock. ian thornley's voice just has some kind of soothing effect, i could listen to it all the time. i love it. i feel a little bit left of center but then again we've all been there before every time i see a lost cause coming it's nothing less, nothing more every time i get lost in paradise i find a way to screw it up somehow it's not the way it's supposed to be but it'll do for now... i've never been lost i've never been found and it makes no difference if i'm around (just can't seem to get out of the way) it's never been words it's never been actions it's never been promises that i've never kept (just can't seem to get out of the way)... and last, but certainly not least, emm gryner. man, can she sing. i've decided that i now have two goals in life: one is to buy a jetta. mmmmmjetta. two is to record a decent emm-worthy cover of 'serenade'. i love this song, i think it truly may be the song of all songs. faded again in the lounge blood and wine and the water downtown here, winter kicks out the summer for hangin' around pass the time and watch the boy get off grab a jet and give it one more shot, see your face and write a blurry line, 'its a good day for wishin' you were mine'. (and i wish it all the time). rushin' to slow the decay, and i don't care what the people say, days burn up like weed and we're still the same. shoot me a scene where i'm easy, where pieces fit, and people agree. no one ever sees the way you never cease to save me. monday comes and everything is wrong. dull and cold like late november dawn. see your face and ask someone the time, its a good day for wishin' you were mine. (and i wish it all the time). and now, for the first time in a while, im going to go and pick up my guitar, and im going to play this song and sing like no one's listening. and for the first time all day, i feel ok. :) how bad is it that i'm seriously considering sleeping in the lab tonight since it's supposed to rain tomorrow morning and i have to be at school before the buses run? Libra (Sept. 23 — Oct. 23) This weekend, don't give a negative thought process more energy than it deserves. Bring the axe down on ideas that drain you of your power. You are capable of so much. amen. that put a smile on my face. :)
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
ps: if there's a thunderstorm tonight, i want to sit on my porch and watch it. that would be incredibly awesome. currently listening to: edge 102 | watchmen - stereo a quick post, but a post nonetheless. i came into lab yesterday morning with the intention of doing my yeast transformation, and when i was throwing up in the sink, i thought "you know, i should probably go home and scratch the day." so i did. i downloaded 'mean girls' and '13 going on 30'. mean girls was actually pretty funny, and as much as i hate lindsay lohan, i really enjoyed the movie. 13 going on 30, well, i saw the first half, but the second half was corrupt, so i didn't see it. but at the mid way point, i was more impressed with mean girls than i was with 13 going on 30. which is weird, because i really wanted to see 13... and didn't really care so much about mean girls. heh. what else is new. well, not much. no headaches (yet, knock on wood), but im armed to the nines with over-the-counters and some narcotics just as a safegaurd. mmmsafeguard. finger eleven tomorrow night :D !!!!! im SO excited. i missed them in october, and im so looking forward to seeing them tomorrow. wo0t! and boy will be there as well, which is also exciting. our first concert! aww. hahaha. clearly im a loser. there's my timer -- gotta run! edit 2:07pm: well, im back. my timer beeped, i did my stuff, and im in a 30 minute incubation. strange, for losing a whole day yesterday, i still feel pretty on top of things right now, but i'd be in a MUCH better place if we had agar! *grumble* i need agar to start making more of my plates for my big transformation, which im planning to do on sunday :S how much does THAT suck. ugh. maybe i'll take a day off during the week. who knows. i feel like a giant fat cow lately, which isn't a lot of fun. i need to get more active, feel like im doing more, not that i can today because its too friggin hot. man, its GROSS outside. at least tomorrow is supposed to be cooler, which is FAB because im going to see FINGER ELEVEN! and we all know how hot and gross concert halls get. yick. ok, well, that pretty much wraps up all i have to say. haha. hope you're all having a fabulous day!
Sunday, June 06, 2004
currently listening to: the sounds of degrassi (on tv) so. last night, i had the intention of doing one of two things: a) putting on oversized pyjamas and staying in to watch tv, having a relaxing evening or b) going to old navy with my mom (in london), looking around, picking up a few things, and then coming home to put on oversized pyjamas and staying in to watch tv, having a relaxing evening. neither of these were actually carried out. instead, i suffered through the worst headache of my entire life and spent 3 hours in the ER at the local hospital, only to be told it sounded like a migraine (since it was accompanied this time with nausea). after about 1.5 hrs in the waiting room, i was sent back, to lay down. i turned off all the lights in the room and laid on the bed. a nurse came in to take my blood pressure and then it was me laying down again, until the doctor came in. she said from the signs, it definitely sounded like a migraine. by this point, the pain had subsided considerably (to be about half of what it was before), only after it had gotten worse by moving from the middle of my head to all down my right side, behind my right eye and my right sinus cavity. that, she said, was hallmark migraine-speak. she told me to try taking 2-extra strength tylenol and 2-extra strength motrin when i was getting a headache, because that should help, and also wrote me a script for tylenol 3's, but if i had a migraine, those wouldn't do anything. she can't really diagnose migraines based on one experience (i can categorically say that is the only headache i've ever had like that) and if i get more, i should go for a CAT scan and make sure there's "nothing changing in your head" (thats actually what she said.) so, they gave me a shot of torridol and sent me to the drug store and then i went home and went to bed, and slept for another 12 hours (i slept for 12 hours on friday too). now, im just paranoid of getting another one, although i'm armed to the nines this time with over-the-counters and some codeine (i <3 narcotics) so hopefully i can cope with my regular headaches and not get a migraine again. so that was my saturday night. how was yours?
Friday, June 04, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 i don't think the big centrifuge is working, and that scares me because i think i may have lost some cells after my first spin (ie they were in the pellet at the bottom). this, my friends, is no good for business because it will decrease my efficiency (i think). in short, a lot has not gone well today. first, my cultures were overshot (they had grown more than they should have, and were the past the point where i was supposed to stop them). turns out, its not a big deal, so thats all fine and dandy, but overall i feel very frenzied today and im not sure why. i've done this procedure three times now (which, in itself, is not a good statement, but anyways) and i just really want this to work and i don't have a good feeling about this today. we'll see. im spinning at a higher speed, hopefully that will pellet more cells seeing as how there aren't really any pelleted from the speed i'm supposed to use. gah. i do *not* have a good feeling about this. :\ currently listening to: edge 102 | three days grace i just looked in the mirror and am utterly astounded at how tired i look. i don't think i have *ever* looked this tired. and it scares me. and makes me want to just go to bed. currently listening to: edge 102 well, well, well. looks like mr. steven harper is in a bit of a pickle. after saying outright, that he would not introduce legislation making abortion illegal, giving the impression that he is not entirely against abortion, the swinging back door opened and now, he will allow private members' bills from backbenchers on the subject. umm, isn't that the same thing, only a different name and a sneakier way of getting it in? this article is well written and it was a good read. at the bottom, they speak of a kerfuffle that occured yesterday when harper made a stop in guelph. there were a couple of hecklers from canadians for equal marriage, and an elderly harper supporter who tried to take out said hecklers. in response to the tussle, harper said he wished that people would "treat each other respectfully". this, i find hard to believe, given that he apparently doesn't even respect me, or any other woman for that matter, enough to allow us to make decisions regarding our own bodies.
Thursday, June 03, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | stone temple pilots (this song owns. i haven't heard it in forever and it sounds so good). after that last post, i think reading this horoscope is what i really needed to hear. for serious. Libra (Sept. 23 — Oct. 23) There is something rather inspiring about your outlook. It's crucial not to dwell on the downside of things. It's exactly what you must avoid if you want the next few days to go well. Recent troubles won't last too long, especially if you focus your attention on the multitude of reasons to be cheerful. dear toronto star astrologer, thank you. love, melissa currently listening to: edge 102 karrie and i walked to school this morning in the hopes of seeing gordon (aka gordo) the groundhog (but its really much more fun if you call it groundyhog, i think :P) but he wasn't out today. sadness abounds. im still tired from the weekend. yes. STILL. i don't know what my problem is. and i have these ugly red dry spots on my eyelids above my eyes, i hate them, and i just can't seem to get them to go away. i actually have work to do in lab today, maybe even a whole day's worth. i got here earlier than i planned on this morning, and im going to work like a busy bee and get it done so i can go home and return to my bed. its all about my bed lately, i spent the whole day there yesterday, and slept a bit. it was nice. then i watched 'great balls of fire', the jerry lee lewis movie, about how his career and how it dives when he married his 13 year old cousin. yeah. i kinda figured it would dive after that. i mean, she's your COUSIN. and she's 13!!!!! im feeling weird lately. i think its because im tired. and that's all i'll say about that. oh, haha, karrie and i wrote a song on the way to school this morning. its called "i want to rip out my uterus (a tribute to the female sex)". hahahaha. man i hate cramps :S its like a vice grip in your abdomen just twisting and squeezing every so often. jerkcramps. i feel as though im losing touch with some people and i don't really care for it at all. i haven't talked to k-roe in a long time, i haven't seen adrienne since probably before school ended, robin's in the boonies so of course i haven't talked to her in a long time....its pretty sad that my life is the lab during the day, hanging out with jen at lunch, and thats pretty much it. i keep staying in and being bored. and im bored. and because im bored, im eating mass quantities of smores, which can't be good for me (or the 20-30 pounds i've lost so far). i need to stop. but they're so tasty. and smorey. mmm. smores. meh. things just feel weird in general. i feel un-like me. and i don't like it. 
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my amazon wishlist reading: staring at the lights again adrienne: non-fiction puck you: nhl playoffs 2004 jaked on green beers decordas that kind of girl kates danielle thebrenda theniki mr good the clinic swimgal's splashes love me, hate me.... everything's coming up robin sneaky pete one big rant homestarrunner rathergood.com threebrain.com found magazine makeoutclub chart magazine pollstar breathing: sign my guestbook view my guestbook photo album university of guelph the shape of punk to come musing: coheed and cambria alkaline trio jimmy eat world mae my chemical romance alexisonfire strike anywhere at the drive-in thursday ben folds / five the juliana theory finch brand new yellowcard esthero finger eleven incubus system of a down goldfinger face to face sparta silverchair radiohead weezer the weakerthans k's choice vagrant records drive-thru records victory records
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