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Friday, October 22, 2004
currently listening to: the used | in love and death i really miss uplister. remember uplister? my roommate in third year introduced me to that service. it was so wicked. you could make playlists and have them saved and other people could view them and leave you comments, and you could see other peoples' playlists and it was a fantastic service. man i miss that service. there should be something similar to it. it would easily get plenty of use and it would be utterly fabulous. i just know it. sigh.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 
so hott. it didn't really hurt. it hurts now when i try to rotate the ring through when i clean it. but really, thats to be expected. i LOVE it. best thing EVER. :D
Thursday, October 14, 2004
currently listening to: coheed and cambria hm. so. i seem to have kind of abandoned this page. livejournal has turned out to be a better home than i thought it would be, given my extraordinary hesitation to start up with a site over there. i obviously haven't updated here in a while. but i write lots at my other home. so meander over to this home, because i seem to spend a lot of time there. ps: jonny's back! woooo!
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
currently listening to: breakfast television i would trade my soul if i could pretend that today didn't start until 4 pm so i could just stay in bed. oy. i am effing tired. ps: post re: billy talent coming soon, i promise.
Thursday, September 30, 2004
songs the radio needs to stop playing: franz ferdinand | take me out (guys, its been SEVEN MONTHS. give it a FREAKING REST.) the killers | somebody told me (see above.) u2 | vertigo (i don't know guys, its just SO BAD.) eminem | the new song, i don't know what its called. (he's a cheap and lazy bastard by taking almost every song he's ever made and putting it into one 'super song'. hi. how about some originality.) the tea party | the writing's on the wall (i dislike this song so much that im embarrassed that my page is called 'the writing's on the wall') dashboard confessional | vindicated (um, its old. quit it.) anything by scott stapp. (um, i think this is pretty self-explanatory.) anything by good charlotte. (also pretty self-explanatory.) linkin park | breaking the habit. (i wonder if the radio knows that they broke the song. and the habit.) there. had to get that off my chest. feel much better now. :)
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
its cloudy outside right now. i LOVELOVELOVE cloudy. this is my kinda weather. now if only it were more like 15 degrees instead of 20. i suppose i can't have it all. at least not just yet. :\
Friday, September 24, 2004
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
currently listening to: breakfast television yay ashley! thank you for coming to visit me yesterday! it was *so* good to see you! :) in other news, 27 FREAKING DEGREES?!?!?!?! there honestly aren't enough to words to say how badly i want fall weather. this is really pissing me off, to no end. for FUCKS SAKES BRING ON THE FALL. oh, im getting my haircut on saturday. FINALLY. its SO LONG its driving me NUTS. I. WANT. FALL. NOW!!!!
Monday, September 20, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | matt good - alert status red my left ankle is acting up something FIERCE. this is the ankle that i tore everything in when i was in high school. and today, its HELLA sore. its so bloddy uncomfortable i just wince all the time. i like seeing emails from sam in my inbox. she's cute and i miss her tons. im glad she got my package today, considering she leaves on thursday for her adventure down-under. i just know that kid is gonna do great things with her life. she'll make an awesome doctor. im......ok. i bounce back and forth between good and not good. and as much as that's to be expected, i still don't like it. it means i could be anywhere and have a total breakdown and not be able to do anything about it. i think i am FINALLY going to get a haircut on saturday. i am going to call tonight and make my appointment and i hope to GOD i can get one. my hair feels rediculous. we have a stupid lab meeting at 3. its gonna be LOOOONG. and then i still have to do work afterwards. oh well. i guess this is what i signed up for. i am going to unofficially audit human physiology. get a bit of a basis of it. should be fun, i hope. at the very least, interesting. time for me to lab-it-up.
Friday, September 17, 2004
why is it, that when i WANT to look good, i feel like i never do, yet when i grub it up in a sweatshirt, sweatpants, and my hair in an "im not even trying" ponytail, i look really cute?
Thursday, September 16, 2004
currently listening to: dawson's creek (tv) i guess thats just it, then. "it's hard, because as much as you're fighting each other, you're fighting yourself." the battle's over no one wins. and we're both casualties. and my eyes won't stop leaking.
Monday, September 13, 2004
im sure i'll get shot for saying this, but enough of this 20+ degree weather already. bring on the fall!
Sunday, September 05, 2004
holy major freak out, batman. im much calmer now, because i've figured it out. here's the backup: my computer? was fucked for a while. i didn't know what the shit was going on. it was beeping on startup, and it looked like nothing was happening because the monitor wouldn't come on. i have since figured out a) that stuff WAS happening, and my harddrive is not fried, nor is my processor, because once i thought it might have gotten to the point of starting up, i hit the enter key with the speakers on (to log me onto windows) and i heard the sound. major phew emitted at that point. so it became a video card/monitor thing. then i hauled my monitor up to karrie's room to test it. its not the monitor. its the video card. which sucks. because my video card is integrated to my motherboard. the motherboard i *just* bought for a good chunk of money. i feel like crying. in fact, i was crying. which tells me that i really need to get more sleep. im sorry i bombarded you with those emails. i panicked, didn't know what else to do. i guess im just not that good in an electronic crisis. :$ i miss you. a *lot*. :( time to go receipt hunting i guess. :S edit: found receipt. phew. now, look for warranty/gaurantee. :S edit: warranty is 3 years. thank FUCK. now i just have to figure out what the fuck im going to do. :\
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
BAHAHAHAHA! this was just too funny to pass up, i have to post it here for all of you to read. from chartattack.com, on britney spears' new video: So, the video. Britney’s at a party, see, and somehow ends up falling in the pool! Uh oh! With her wet dress undoubtedly clinging in all the right places, she runs to a bedroom to strip out of her soaked garment before putting on a new one. Then she goes back outside where all the partygoers are waiting for… for something. For what? All of a sudden, we see that the dress Britney put on was a wedding dress! Oh, ho, ho, I think I see where this is going! Then she walks down the aisle and, as she sings, "It’s my prerogative," the groom turns out to be… Kevin Motherfucking Federline! Well shut my mouth and shove a crowbar up my nose! haha, right there, at the end. SLAYED me. lol.
Monday, August 30, 2004
currently listening to: the sound of being ROYALLY PISSED OFF as if the jimmy eat world concert is sold out. as. if. *rubs eyes* yep. ticketmaster says its sold out. BOO. i am *so* mad. why didn't i get my tickets on saturday! growl.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
holy nice paycheque batman!!!!!! today is payday. and my tuition comes off my paycheque, so the first and last cheques i get are usually variable, with the rest of them all being the same amount. this one is almost a full $300 more than im used to getting. SAH-WEET. score number two of the day, i did my large scale yeast transformation on tuesday. and it appears not to be contaminated! a gigant wo0t to that!!!!!! WO0T!!!!!!!!! if there is contamination, its negligible, but i haven't seen any on the random plates i selected to look at. SCORE. *crosses fingers* please please PLEASE be true.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
currently listening to: nothing i love worrying and stressing myself to the point that i feel physically ill. thats so fab.
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | gob - break ohmygodohmygodohmygod.....*hyperventilates* *calms self down* jimmy eat world. toronto. mod club. september 9. i don't know how much they are, but if i can't afford it, i'll so cry. i missed them last time. i need to see them. NEED to see them. and if i can't afford it....well, there will be no greater injustice in the world than me not going to see jimmy eat world. there's even a pre-sale and i can get tickets early if i want! boo. i. must. get. there. somehow. even if i have to go by myself, i don't care. currently listening to: bbc news (tv) so help me god, if i get to school and my cultures aren't grown, im throwing myself out the window. i am *so* friggin' tired right now. haha: "why can't a bicycle stand on its own? because it is two-tired." thats me! hahahaha.
Monday, August 23, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 snow patrol on keeping oneself in line: here is my visual list of things that i need to remind myself to do:
i think thats it for now. key words being 'for now'. hmm. it feels like im missing something though.....i dunno. i got nothin'. edit: booyah. i LOVELOVELOVE this song (american idiot by green day)
Friday, August 13, 2004
currently listening to: taking back sunday new american classic winter is going to be so cozy with this song, i can't wait. this song and flannel sheets? mmmmm. ((is it winter yet?)) well, actually, i can't wait until i get blank cd's, so i can put it on a cd and listen to it as i walk. such a pretty song. i've started to learn it on guitar, only im not good enough at it yet. plus i have no calluses, so i can't stand playing for extended periods of time -- my fingers get too sore. i haven't had much to say lately. so i guess here's a synopsis of my life as of late: i need a vacation. badly. i've been thinking about med school. for real. im learning anatomy. for fun. (who does that?!) i don't know if i can get into med school. :that said, i'd be totally remissed if i didn't try. i hate money. like, REALLY hate it. it bothers me how poorly grad students are treated at guelph. we DO your research. pay us. please. like, REALLY pay us. don't pay us, and then take half of it away and call it 'tuition'. we're university employees. that means we should get free tuition. but i digress. this has been a shit week. stuff's not working in lab. and my prof's on vacay. and im worried it'll look like i've done nothing when he gets back. jen leaves next weekend. that makes me sad. because she's the closest thing i've had to a best friend in a long time. ((i forgot how this song can just make me cry. *that* is a good song.)) venting is good. but it usually ends up in me being worked up and in an overly sour mood. i think i take things too seriously. and i should probably not. i should lighten up. i hate money. like, REALLY hate it. almost as much as i hate feeling like a financial burden. or financial drain, if you will. i really love this song. i've listened to it four times since i started writing this. you've got to get better, said it's all in your head, we could live through these letters, or forget it altogether, see, the months they don't matter, its the days i can't take, when the hours move to minutes, and i'm seconds away.... i think its the guitar part that i love so much. the guitarist picks the strings and plucks so gingerly, like he's afraid of breaking them or something. there's something so careful about those notes, you can just tell they're so thought out, and the song is played with such care. it gives it a very intimate feeling (although it does help that its totally acoustic guitar). i bought the sheet music for 'winter' by tori amos the other day. that song is utterly beautiful, and yet it looks like a pianists' nightmare. six flats. yikes. i tried it out a bit on a piano at the music store, i don't think i'm too rusty, but i still need some practice. maybe i'll call the music department again in the fall semester and get me a practice room so i can fiddle around once in a while. that'll be fun. i'd love to be super proficient at that song. it'd be even better if i could manage to sing it and play at the same time, but in my opinion, singing and playing the piano are two things that are so hard to do at the same time. separately, a-ok. together? i don't think i'm co-ordinated enough for that. i think im at the point now where i'm talking without saying anything. i feel like i've been here far too often. :
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
currently listening to: breakfast television i am writhing in pain. jerkcramps. i wish it was still raining. bring back the rain. the rain is comfortable. i want the rain. :(
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Monday, July 26, 2004
Friday, July 23, 2004
heather morrison, you have made my WHOLE DAY! in todays' mail, i get a card, with spongebob socks (with pom pom heads!) and a spongebob wallet! HOW FREAKING COOL IS THAT!!!!! FAB! :D colour me happy! :D
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
well. i decided that i should try to do some lab work today, so i came into lab. having been here for almost an hour now, i can categorically say that this was a bad idea. a really, really, really bad idea. just even walking to the bus stop caused so much creaking and pain in my joints (well, no actual creaking, but it hurt nonetheless), and now that im here, im so tired and i have no energy to do anything, and im sure i'm contaminating EVERYTHING. im finishing this digest, running this gel, and im going home, and not moving for the rest of the evening. god i really hate feeling like this. :(
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
currently listening to: the whirring of my fan and so begins a "im so tired and sick, yet no matter how tired i feel i won't be able to sleep" night. its 10:30, i've only tried being in bed for 25 minutes, but i can tell this already. this is not good. on top of tossing and turning, every part of my body hurts. its like an ache that starts in the middle of the bone and radiates to the outside. its like the worst possible kind of ache, and it seems like there's nothing i can do to alleviate it. one of my nostrils is on permadrip, there aren't enough words to describe how everything aches, and even my hair is sore. this is poopy. :( wow! my cousin just got hired by a gaming company in BC! he interviewed for them last friday and found out today that he got the job! so fab! he starts august 9! so exciting! congrats, pete!
Saturday, July 17, 2004
currently listening to: definitely not the opera (haha, i just wrote oprah) on cbc i so love this horoscope. this is the libra horoscope for today, from the toronto star: Rest, relax and snooze this weekend. Do no more than you have to and do less than you need to. Indulge in lazy, listless indolence. Conserve all your energy by staying in bed longer than you should. Yes, and eat too much. Refuse to worry. That should be easy for you. how fab is THAT. haha.
Thursday, July 15, 2004
ok? i get it. i get it. i know that i'll never be rich. i know that it'll take me over two years to finish my masters. i know that nothing will ever work for me and that i'll just run out of luck. i get it, ok? so quit trying to point it out to me over and over and over again.
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
currently listening to: moneen - pleasantly saying the most terrible things wow. long time no post! yesterday was FUN! to start, i got REAL MAIL! REAL MAIL! a fab card from hols. so much fun to read! i haven't got real mail in so long, it was utterly fabulous! i am going to make another card on the weekend when i go home and write back. this pen pal thing is fun, i forgot just how fun it is! then last night, adrienne came over and we played bbq and watched sex (andthecity) and hung out. mucho good times. hot damn i love a good hamburger. YUM. not a lot else is new. the boy's birthday celebrations went well last week, we had dinner at marbles restaurant (in waterloo) and then just rented a couple of movies and hung out at my house. very pleasant evening. i'm coming up with something to make for jen since she's going to be leaving guelph when her job is done! :( that makes me sad. that kid makes me laugh like no other. this may end up being the whole thing, or i may do something else for her too. anyways, i'm rather hungery. HUNGERY. im going to try to hold off to making dinner til 6. but who knows if i'll last that long. hehehe. i might cave and have a wee bit o' chocolate first to all who are interested: the new 'my chemical romance' cd kicks some SERIOUS ass. wow. so good. its very not-so-like their old cd, but it is still rather enjoyable. i need to get back into the swing of music again. i feel like i'm out of it. anyways. stomach rumbling. i guess i won't make it til 6 after all :
Friday, July 09, 2004
dear giant thunderstorm, i know you're out there. and i know you want to play. and believe me, i want to play too. but if you could not play when im walking home this afternoon, that would be great. you see, my shoes, they kind of leak. don't get me wrong, i'd love to see you. i think you're fabulous. just not when im walking home. looking forward to dry feet, melissa
Thursday, July 08, 2004
currently listening to: duelling radios... my chemical romance is opening for face to face on their new tour? and i have no money and can't go? *whimper* the last face to face tour EVER, and MCR is opening, and i can't afford to go? *tear* CRAP and their new album came out yesterday and i FORGOT! must.....find.......tonight.....
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | switchfoot - i dare you to move wow. over a whole week, and i haven't written anything here? weird. truth is, i just haven't felt like it. i dunno. dare i say im growing tired of this blogging culture? spent the past weekend at the cottage. once again, problems with joints, specifically my left wrist. i blame holding all those cards for canasta, which mom and i learned how to play again (we figured it out about 6 years ago, and have never played it since). had a pretty nice burn on my left arm (thats typically what happens when you drive with your arm out the window in the middle of the day). it was pretty sore on friday/saturday, but is more than bearable now, and just looks plain weird because its not uniform up the arm, there's still some white spots. clearly, i suck at this "even skin tone" thing. im so tired. *so* tired. there aren't enough words to describe how tired i am, its really ugly. i don't know why im so tired. i've been tested for mono so many times, and its never been that. given that i have no fever or aches/pains (besides my arthritis :P) and i still have energy to move around, i don't think it is mono, and im not going to get tested for it. no one i know has it, so i think its unlikely that i've picked it up somehow. and now that i've said that, i've opened myself up to people to deliver their "i never knew anyone with mono and i still got it" stories. hey, feel free, i've probably heard them all before :) this weekend is the boy's birthday :) we're going out to dinner on friday night (even though his birthday is on saturday) and then i think we're going to see spiderman 2. tres exciting. i hope he likes what i got him, i'm kind of worried about one part of it, but meh, we'll see. and regardless of what he says, im paying for both dinner AND the movie. :P well, i should probably go and start reading some journal articles. gotta get refreshed on my info and stay on top of this one gene im working with. it looks like it might pay off and be my whole thesis, but who knows. ta :)
Monday, June 28, 2004
there's this crazy wind tunnel in the building today. you can hear the whooshing sounds of the wind in the stairways and doors are closing funny (ie: not closing all the way). then when you open the door beside it (in the case of double doors) the not-fully-closed-door slams shut. this all kind of puts an eerie spin on the building today, especially with the cloudy weather that doesn't seem to know what its doing or which way its going. i am very tired today. and im planning on staying up to watch the election results come in (i'd really like to stay up and watch and find out who wins, whether or not i can stay up that late is a bit iffy). good thing i don't really have anything to do at all tomorrow so i can mozy in kind of later than usual, if i so wish. i wrote a letter to someone today, im planning on dropping it in the mail on my way home. then i have to stop off at zehrs (i need pizza sauce) because i am going to make a pizza for dinner tonight. mmmm. actually, im going to stop off at home tonight and see what i need to make said pizza before heading off to zehrs, im not sure if some of my vegetables have turned or not. this past weekend was girls' weekend at the cottage! uber fabulous! so much junk food and fabulous things, lots of painting, and some sore joints. sadly, at age 22, i think i'm becoming arthritic which is rather unfortunate. for now, i think im going to chalk up the pain to the fact that my joints were just cold. yes. denial is such a great place. :P i could honestly fall asleep *right now*. if only i wasn't in lab...
Thursday, June 24, 2004
this is certainly an interesting read on image construction and perception in politics. i must say i quite enjoyed it.
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | matthew good - alert status red i don't know what it is with my horoscopes, but they know me today. like, *know* me. "sometimes just wearing headphones can block out the maddening crowd." "The world is so frustrating sometimes. Each time we begin to feel as if we are finally starting to make progress, something awkward crops up. Focus — not on what's getting in your way, but on the best way to carry out your mission." yours is even pretty good today, too: "There is urgent work to be done. There is even money to be made, or to protect, before someone else gets it out of you. And the ubiquitous emotional struggle is always there for you, too. It may be tense now, but eventually you will be very, very pleased with yourself." lesigh. it is true: you really don't realize what you have until there's a suggestion of not having it. im lucky. and im sorry. :(
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
from the toronto star, specifically, david olive's election blog: "You bring forward these rights issues to avoid the critical issues of scandal." - Harper in last night’s debate. 40 reasons to hate bush (the president. not the other one. dirty dirty people.) from punkvoter.com 1. the national debt under bush jr. has increased so drastically that the average american's estimated share of national debt will be an astronomical $24 000, compared to just $500 when dubya first took office. 2. under bush jr., there are now 43 million americans without health insurance. 3. responsible for an unemployment rate of 6%. there are now 9 million people out of work in america, 3.3 million more than when bush took office. 4. he cut healthcare benefits for war veterans. 5. bush jr. deserted his unit during vietnam and was reported AWOL for over a year from his assigned unit: the texas air national gaurd, or as its referred to by other military outfits, the 'champagne division'. 6. despite a 13% unemployment rate among those aged 16-24, bush jr. proposed to eliminate youth opportunity grants -- a program that provides job training to the nationa's youth. a $225M program in 2002 is now being done away with so bush can have more money for iraq. 7. he cut funding for $375,000 low income college students and reduced pell grant amounts to such a severe degree that it effectively caused 84 000 students to no longer be eligible for pell grants. pell amounts have been overall reduced for 1.5 million students...its safe to say that the bush daughters aren't eligible for financial aid, so this won't affect the opulent lives of anyone bush jr. may know. 8. withdrew from the international criminal court. 9. first president in US history to refuse united nations election inspectors (during the 2002 elections). 10. all-time US (and world) record holder for the most corporate campaign donations. 11. the bush administration had twice as many FBI agents fighting the drug war than fighting terrorism prior to 9/11. even after 9/11, more than 2000 FBI agents are wasting their valuable time assigned to the war on drugs. 12. his proposed "free trade" agreements would result in the loss of US jobs to foreign markets and the exploitation of third world workers. 13. john ashcroft. 14. he has taken 11 official executive actions to undermine reproductive rights. how long will it be before a woman is stripped of her right to choose? 15. failed to fulfill pledge to get osama bin laden 'dead or alive'. 16. wasted federal resources of a PR trip to baghdad where he staged a thanksgiving meal at 6 AM with troops that were screened based on their political affiliation. and the turkey? it was a prop. 17. his refusal to fire - or even reprimand - lt. jerry "our god is bigger than their god" boykin. perhaps its because boykin said of the president "george bush was not elected by a majority of voters in the united states. he was appointed by god. he's in the white house becuase god put him there. ed note: he's in the white house because his brother put him there by rigging the florida election. 18. after sending troops off to die in an unjust and unprovoked war, he still has yet to attend any soldiers' funerals. 19. his shameless nepotism for the rich and powerful. elizabeth cheney (daughter of ol' dick) got hooked up with a cool gig at the state department where she was in charge of the $129M middle easte partnership initiative and then was moved over to daddy and uncle dubya's campaign payroll. 20. he dropped his dog on its head. 21. bush jr. is the first president in US history to enter office with a criminal record. 22. bush jr. has set the all-time record for most people worldwide to simultaneously protest a leader (10 million people), shattering the record for protests against any person in the history of mankind. 23. he slashed funding to the 'violence against women' act. 24. he has invaded and occupied two countries at a continuing cost of one billion dollars a week. 25. he appointed charles pickering, a notorious segragationist from mississippi, as a federal judge and suspiciously did so on martin luther king day. 26. bush has spent over 100 billion on iraq, leaving states to face the largest budget crises in decades and forced tocut off public services; now with the federal deficit at a new high, bush jr. wants to award more tax breaks to the wealthy. 27. under new bush legistation (the clear skies initiative), power plants are allowed to emit triple the amount of highly-toxic mercury into the environment. 28. bush jr. failed to protect 3 million acres of the tongass national forest from logging. the tongass has the largest concentration of bald eagles on earth and has already lost 700 square miles to logging with 33 more loggin permits pending. not even the sanctity of our endangered national bird can compete with bush campaign contributions provided by the forest industry. 29. he is on pace to have taken more vacation than any president in history, including a 28 day vacation right before 9/11. bush jr. has taken 6 months of vacation in total...do you anyone that gets 6 months of vacation? 30. he pulled out of the kyoto agreement on global warming, which had been agreed upon by 178 other countries. 31. bush jr. is endorsed by fundamentalist pat robertson who claims that god told him bush will win re-election and that "it doesn't make a difference what bush does because god is blessing him". bush keeps some great company, b ut keep in mind robertson was also the nitwit that blamed the 9/11 attacks on gays and suggested that we "nuke" the US state department. 32. he set the record for the most executions by any governor in american history. 152 in total; some of whom were mentally disabled. 33. he has repeatedly stonewalled the public investigation into 9/11. 34. bush jr. declined to fully fund the AIDS initiative after promising to do so. the final cuts that resulted were over $2 billion. 35. he still suggests that homosexuals are "sinners" and i pushing legislation that would forbid gay partnerships and deny fundamental civil rights on a national and local level. 36. choked on a pretzel and nearly lost his life while seated in front of a TV. 37. bush jr. has gone to great lengths to prevent investigations of his friends at enron and halliburton. more time and money was spent investigating the monica lewinsky affair than has been spent investigating one of the biggest corporate rip-offs in history. 38. bush jr. has set the record for the fewest amount of press conferences by a president since the advent of television. 39. responsible for $521 billion budget deficit -- less than four years after inheriting a $200 billion surplus. 40. he has made repeated attempts to legalize oil drilling in the national wildlife refuge. i just saw an ad for a movie in my yahoo mail inbox. it looked interesting, so i clicked on it. and watched the preview.. and now, i really want to see it. its a MAJOR chick flick, called 'the notebook', but it looks really interesting, and its got ryan gosling, a london kid, in it. and it actually looks really really good. so i really want to see it. im bored. but at least i have stuff to do today. stuff that i know i can do today. even if it means im starting over from the beginning. again. time to surf the net some more!
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
another wake up at 5 am. another sleepy process of getting ready. another walk to school at 6 am. another 6:30am arrival, only to find out............ my culture isn't grown enough. again. looks like another reason to quit. :S
Monday, June 14, 2004
SO EXCITING! the sky is WICKED dark to the south of me, and there's not only a severe thunderstorm warning, but there's a TORNADO warning too! HOT DAMN i LOVE inclement weather!!!!!!!!!! :D i just hope it doesn't pansy out like it usually does! wo0t! edit june 15 8 am: it totally pansied out. weather is an asshole.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
i feel like being very girly tonight. and i don't know. but this never happens. so i think i should just go with it. :) currently listening to: edge 102 | the beasties - ch check it out so i hauled my ass in here this morning to do my large scale library transformation. fabulous. it was early, but the earlier i start, the earlier i finish, so it all pays off. up at 5:40, out the door at 6, in the lab at 6:30.......... and my overnight starter culture didn't grow. (i do an overnight culture, let that grow, and use that to inoculate my real cultures for the transformation). so with no growth in the overnight culture, there is obviously no transformation to do, since i can't start my cultures. so im autoclaving a new flask, starting a new overnight culture, and i'll transform tomorrow. ugh. and i wanted tomorrow off after being here both saturday and today. but i guess not. so tired. :\
Saturday, June 12, 2004
currently listening to: the killers so i just got back from renting a movie. on the walk home, when i was willing myself to become gloriously lightheaded and dizzy and remembering just how much i love that feeling, i thought about what it would be like to not care. and i realized its a total trade-off: you lose the excitement and the passion about certain things, which is bad. but at the same time, nothing bothers you, and you can go through life completely unaffected. everything would just roll off your back, and according to you, everything would be fine, because nothing would matter. then, i thought, 'how great would it be if you could just care about certain things and not care about others?' but then, i realized that i don't think that's possible. its not something that i think i can do, this 'not caring' thing. i guess the moral of the story is that i wish i could just not care on a whim. just at moments when i want to not care. but i can't. i don't think i know of anyone who can. and while that sucks, it does allow for a much richer and fulfilling life. so i guess im stuck with it. instead, lyrics are ruling me. the sarah harmer obssession i had a while ago. man she's good. whats the good in being so sensitive? can i trade this thin skin for a shell? the killers. these guys definitely know how to rock. this futuristic rock sound, almost. i dig it. we had a fight on the promenade out in the rain, she said she loved me, but she had somewhere to go, she couldn't scream when i held her close and i swore i'd never let her go... heaven ain't close in a place like this, anything goes in a place like this... thornley/big wreck. good canadian rock. ian thornley's voice just has some kind of soothing effect, i could listen to it all the time. i love it. i feel a little bit left of center but then again we've all been there before every time i see a lost cause coming it's nothing less, nothing more every time i get lost in paradise i find a way to screw it up somehow it's not the way it's supposed to be but it'll do for now... i've never been lost i've never been found and it makes no difference if i'm around (just can't seem to get out of the way) it's never been words it's never been actions it's never been promises that i've never kept (just can't seem to get out of the way)... and last, but certainly not least, emm gryner. man, can she sing. i've decided that i now have two goals in life: one is to buy a jetta. mmmmmjetta. two is to record a decent emm-worthy cover of 'serenade'. i love this song, i think it truly may be the song of all songs. faded again in the lounge blood and wine and the water downtown here, winter kicks out the summer for hangin' around pass the time and watch the boy get off grab a jet and give it one more shot, see your face and write a blurry line, 'its a good day for wishin' you were mine'. (and i wish it all the time). rushin' to slow the decay, and i don't care what the people say, days burn up like weed and we're still the same. shoot me a scene where i'm easy, where pieces fit, and people agree. no one ever sees the way you never cease to save me. monday comes and everything is wrong. dull and cold like late november dawn. see your face and ask someone the time, its a good day for wishin' you were mine. (and i wish it all the time). and now, for the first time in a while, im going to go and pick up my guitar, and im going to play this song and sing like no one's listening. and for the first time all day, i feel ok. :) how bad is it that i'm seriously considering sleeping in the lab tonight since it's supposed to rain tomorrow morning and i have to be at school before the buses run? Libra (Sept. 23 — Oct. 23) This weekend, don't give a negative thought process more energy than it deserves. Bring the axe down on ideas that drain you of your power. You are capable of so much. amen. that put a smile on my face. :)
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
ps: if there's a thunderstorm tonight, i want to sit on my porch and watch it. that would be incredibly awesome. currently listening to: edge 102 | watchmen - stereo a quick post, but a post nonetheless. i came into lab yesterday morning with the intention of doing my yeast transformation, and when i was throwing up in the sink, i thought "you know, i should probably go home and scratch the day." so i did. i downloaded 'mean girls' and '13 going on 30'. mean girls was actually pretty funny, and as much as i hate lindsay lohan, i really enjoyed the movie. 13 going on 30, well, i saw the first half, but the second half was corrupt, so i didn't see it. but at the mid way point, i was more impressed with mean girls than i was with 13 going on 30. which is weird, because i really wanted to see 13... and didn't really care so much about mean girls. heh. what else is new. well, not much. no headaches (yet, knock on wood), but im armed to the nines with over-the-counters and some narcotics just as a safegaurd. mmmsafeguard. finger eleven tomorrow night :D !!!!! im SO excited. i missed them in october, and im so looking forward to seeing them tomorrow. wo0t! and boy will be there as well, which is also exciting. our first concert! aww. hahaha. clearly im a loser. there's my timer -- gotta run! edit 2:07pm: well, im back. my timer beeped, i did my stuff, and im in a 30 minute incubation. strange, for losing a whole day yesterday, i still feel pretty on top of things right now, but i'd be in a MUCH better place if we had agar! *grumble* i need agar to start making more of my plates for my big transformation, which im planning to do on sunday :S how much does THAT suck. ugh. maybe i'll take a day off during the week. who knows. i feel like a giant fat cow lately, which isn't a lot of fun. i need to get more active, feel like im doing more, not that i can today because its too friggin hot. man, its GROSS outside. at least tomorrow is supposed to be cooler, which is FAB because im going to see FINGER ELEVEN! and we all know how hot and gross concert halls get. yick. ok, well, that pretty much wraps up all i have to say. haha. hope you're all having a fabulous day!
Sunday, June 06, 2004
currently listening to: the sounds of degrassi (on tv) so. last night, i had the intention of doing one of two things: a) putting on oversized pyjamas and staying in to watch tv, having a relaxing evening or b) going to old navy with my mom (in london), looking around, picking up a few things, and then coming home to put on oversized pyjamas and staying in to watch tv, having a relaxing evening. neither of these were actually carried out. instead, i suffered through the worst headache of my entire life and spent 3 hours in the ER at the local hospital, only to be told it sounded like a migraine (since it was accompanied this time with nausea). after about 1.5 hrs in the waiting room, i was sent back, to lay down. i turned off all the lights in the room and laid on the bed. a nurse came in to take my blood pressure and then it was me laying down again, until the doctor came in. she said from the signs, it definitely sounded like a migraine. by this point, the pain had subsided considerably (to be about half of what it was before), only after it had gotten worse by moving from the middle of my head to all down my right side, behind my right eye and my right sinus cavity. that, she said, was hallmark migraine-speak. she told me to try taking 2-extra strength tylenol and 2-extra strength motrin when i was getting a headache, because that should help, and also wrote me a script for tylenol 3's, but if i had a migraine, those wouldn't do anything. she can't really diagnose migraines based on one experience (i can categorically say that is the only headache i've ever had like that) and if i get more, i should go for a CAT scan and make sure there's "nothing changing in your head" (thats actually what she said.) so, they gave me a shot of torridol and sent me to the drug store and then i went home and went to bed, and slept for another 12 hours (i slept for 12 hours on friday too). now, im just paranoid of getting another one, although i'm armed to the nines this time with over-the-counters and some codeine (i <3 narcotics) so hopefully i can cope with my regular headaches and not get a migraine again. so that was my saturday night. how was yours?
Friday, June 04, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 i don't think the big centrifuge is working, and that scares me because i think i may have lost some cells after my first spin (ie they were in the pellet at the bottom). this, my friends, is no good for business because it will decrease my efficiency (i think). in short, a lot has not gone well today. first, my cultures were overshot (they had grown more than they should have, and were the past the point where i was supposed to stop them). turns out, its not a big deal, so thats all fine and dandy, but overall i feel very frenzied today and im not sure why. i've done this procedure three times now (which, in itself, is not a good statement, but anyways) and i just really want this to work and i don't have a good feeling about this today. we'll see. im spinning at a higher speed, hopefully that will pellet more cells seeing as how there aren't really any pelleted from the speed i'm supposed to use. gah. i do *not* have a good feeling about this. :\ currently listening to: edge 102 | three days grace i just looked in the mirror and am utterly astounded at how tired i look. i don't think i have *ever* looked this tired. and it scares me. and makes me want to just go to bed. currently listening to: edge 102 well, well, well. looks like mr. steven harper is in a bit of a pickle. after saying outright, that he would not introduce legislation making abortion illegal, giving the impression that he is not entirely against abortion, the swinging back door opened and now, he will allow private members' bills from backbenchers on the subject. umm, isn't that the same thing, only a different name and a sneakier way of getting it in? this article is well written and it was a good read. at the bottom, they speak of a kerfuffle that occured yesterday when harper made a stop in guelph. there were a couple of hecklers from canadians for equal marriage, and an elderly harper supporter who tried to take out said hecklers. in response to the tussle, harper said he wished that people would "treat each other respectfully". this, i find hard to believe, given that he apparently doesn't even respect me, or any other woman for that matter, enough to allow us to make decisions regarding our own bodies.
Thursday, June 03, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | stone temple pilots (this song owns. i haven't heard it in forever and it sounds so good). after that last post, i think reading this horoscope is what i really needed to hear. for serious. Libra (Sept. 23 — Oct. 23) There is something rather inspiring about your outlook. It's crucial not to dwell on the downside of things. It's exactly what you must avoid if you want the next few days to go well. Recent troubles won't last too long, especially if you focus your attention on the multitude of reasons to be cheerful. dear toronto star astrologer, thank you. love, melissa currently listening to: edge 102 karrie and i walked to school this morning in the hopes of seeing gordon (aka gordo) the groundhog (but its really much more fun if you call it groundyhog, i think :P) but he wasn't out today. sadness abounds. im still tired from the weekend. yes. STILL. i don't know what my problem is. and i have these ugly red dry spots on my eyelids above my eyes, i hate them, and i just can't seem to get them to go away. i actually have work to do in lab today, maybe even a whole day's worth. i got here earlier than i planned on this morning, and im going to work like a busy bee and get it done so i can go home and return to my bed. its all about my bed lately, i spent the whole day there yesterday, and slept a bit. it was nice. then i watched 'great balls of fire', the jerry lee lewis movie, about how his career and how it dives when he married his 13 year old cousin. yeah. i kinda figured it would dive after that. i mean, she's your COUSIN. and she's 13!!!!! im feeling weird lately. i think its because im tired. and that's all i'll say about that. oh, haha, karrie and i wrote a song on the way to school this morning. its called "i want to rip out my uterus (a tribute to the female sex)". hahahaha. man i hate cramps :S its like a vice grip in your abdomen just twisting and squeezing every so often. jerkcramps. i feel as though im losing touch with some people and i don't really care for it at all. i haven't talked to k-roe in a long time, i haven't seen adrienne since probably before school ended, robin's in the boonies so of course i haven't talked to her in a long time....its pretty sad that my life is the lab during the day, hanging out with jen at lunch, and thats pretty much it. i keep staying in and being bored. and im bored. and because im bored, im eating mass quantities of smores, which can't be good for me (or the 20-30 pounds i've lost so far). i need to stop. but they're so tasty. and smorey. mmm. smores. meh. things just feel weird in general. i feel un-like me. and i don't like it.
Monday, May 31, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 (and misc. lab noises) well, my sister is in wedded bliss somewhere in paris right now. and no, im not talking about paris, ontario, but its french counterpart. you know, the famous paris? lucky duck. thursday night i took off for home. had dinner with the boy in kitchener (mmmmm a&w) and drove home. got things as packed and ready as they could be, chatted online for a bit and went to bed to get as good a nights' sleep as i possibly could. woke up at 7am friday and then proceeded to pack up the car. we took off around 8:30, 8:45ish (with me behind the wheel of my beloved stacy) and drove up to deemerton (where the reception hall/guest bedrooms were located). friday morning saw a lot of set up: tables/chairs for reception, tables/chairs in room for punch/breakfast, other miscellaneous decorating, bar setup, dj table setup.....lots of set up. once that was finished, we got ready for the rehearsal. that was at the church and took about an hour or so to run through it. pretty easy. kinda neat, practicing the walk down the aisle for saturday. rehearsal dinner was back at don's (my now-brother-in-law) parents' place, and then we just kinda hung out, socialized and taryn and don presented the bridal party and their parents with their gifts. i got a really beautiful necklace (which i ended up wearing on saturday) and a beautiful ring as well. after that, the girls headed back to deemerton for their overnight in the rehearsal hall. i was wicked tired but still practiced the song a couple of times before heading upstairs to throw on some nail polish with the rest of the girls. then it was off to bed, thank god. saturday i got up around 7 and wandered downstairs to have my 'before' picture taken. haha. we did 'before' pictures that we took when we got up, and then we all have what we look like after we got ready too. quite hilarious. ate some breakfast, did some more decorating/small things, and then i went back to bed for about an hour. man i was tired. when i got up, it was 11, and i headed downstairs to help with cupcake duty (specifically, taking the iced cupcakes and putting them in containers/taking them to the fridge). then we (the bridal party) took off upstairs to get ready. a quick shower (in gross-sulphur-stinking low-pressure water) and then i went back to my room and started getting ready. i have to be honest and say that i looked REALLY hott. haha. the weather was perfect -- not too hot, not too cold, just perfect, and sunny to boot. the ceremony was very nice -- short, sweet, to the point. leave it to my sister to have an efficient marriage ceremony. haha. afterwards, we took so many pictures my face hurt, and i don't think i want pictures taken anymore, not for a while at the very least! it'll be exciting to get them back, however, and finally see them. dinner and the reception were fab -- the song went well (the one that i played, their first dance as husband and wife) and everything was wickedly fun. i had a good time hanging out with lu (another bridesmaid) and had the best visit with some of my friends from high school. it was so good to see them and spend time with them. mandy, i hadn't seen in over a year, so it was good to finally meet up with her again, even if someone had to get married for it to happen! heard a fun story from susan and katie about a boy who i had a crush on in high school randomly asking about me. hahahahaha. hilarious. a nice ego boost, but im kind of taken at the moment....happily taken, at that ;) its just weird, because i thought i saw this guy at the dashboard/thrice concert i was at on the 15th in TO. so that was rather interesting. sunday, we had breakfast and said goodbye to people who were leaving, as well as watching taryn and don open their wedding gifts. at noonish, the happy couple left for toronto so that they could clear customs and get ready for their flight to london. they're spending their honeymoon (aka this week) traversing the french and italian rivieras. colour me green with envy. that brings us to now, when im back in the lab again, back to the grindstone, and getting hungry. its a good thing its almost lunchtime! overall, not a lot to do this week, at leat not until friday when i re-do my large scale yeast transformation, and end up plating 182 plates. oy. speaking of lunch, im going to go now. because i can. and because i should have work to do around 1pm, so i want to be ready for that. my workload for the day just got a bit bigger (i have to seed cells now as well). my advil is still in my purse, and not in my backpack, and i have a bit of a headache. which sucks. but i'll live. so yay. lunch! ta!
Sunday, May 30, 2004
currently listening to: malcolm in the middle what a weekend. what a fabulous weekend :) i would write more, but im really tired, and i'll be getting up early tomorrow, so right now, im going to brush my teeth and go to bed. so i'll tell you ALL about the weekend later, and perhaps post some pictures as well (or a link to some pictures) when i get them back later this week. yay for five day developing! well, i digress. goodnight :)
Thursday, May 27, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | news stuff 1 MINUTE AGO: i was reading robin's page and leaving a comment when i decided to pilfer this! 1 DAY AGO: i made yummy pizza with jen and picked a wet and fishy karrie up from work. then i burned wedding stuff onto cd, ate smores and went to bed. 1 WEEK AGO: i was probably just getting into lab at this time. or i had been here for like, half an hour. 1 YEAR AGO: i think i had gone on a job interview for the sentinel-review position that i ended up holding last summer. and i think i had just bought a bike. but maybe that was in june. I HURT: usually privately. I LOVE: having good times with my friends, spending time with the boy, going to my cottage, going to concerts, cooking....i could go on if you want. I HATE: early morning when there's no reason to be up. apparently, just like today. *grumble* I FEAR: my prof's reaction to the fact that i can't do my procedure today :S I HOPE: for many things :) I FEEL: REALLY friggin' tired. I LISTEN: not enough, i think... I DRIVE: my MALIBU STACY! I MISS: julie, sam, my cousin (who's coming home! :D), adrienne, and everyone else i don't talk to often enough, like a lot of my friends from back home :) I LEARNED: how to *properly* restring my guitar I KNOW: hmm....not enough, i think. I WAIT: for saturday, to see my sister walk down the aisle :) I NEED: to go back to bed, ASAP. I THINK: too much, sometimes. currently listening to: edge 102 hmmm. i inoculated my overnight culture last night, as the starter culture for my yeast transformation today. this yeast transformation is pretty much all i have to do today. i need to make a couple more plates (because making 182 in two days just isn't enough plate-making for me, apparently) but other than that, i have nada to do. i can find a couple of things to do. like autoclaving all my old plates and throwing them out since they're garbage. but why the hell didn't this culture grow last night? i sware to god, i SAW the colony go INTO the media. with my OWN EYES. boom, colony, in media. thats not something that you imagine. thats something you SEE. so im sure my prof will be pissed, because now, in order to do the big transformation, i have to do another little one first, because i need a plate with my starter plasmids in it. there's really nothing i can do about it. i've done everything correctly, done nothing differently. this will just set me back a week. not a big deal in my books, but to a guy who can't stand the fact that yeast take about 3 days to grow? he'll be pissed. im kinda pissed too. i didn't bust my ass making 182 plates in TWO FREAKING DAYS so that i could sit on my ass today. gah. this is much less stress on me since i didn't really *want* to do this procedure today anyways, but at the same time, i did want to do it today and just get it over with already! in other news, i so totally had smores for breakfast this morning. clearly, i rule. hahaha. who does that! who has graham-cracker-marshmallow-chocolate goodness for breakfast? *raises hand* hehe....awesome. so totally awesome. in fact, when i go home today (whenever that is, probably early seeing as how i have nothing to do), i will probably have more smores. they're delightfully tasty. i heart them very much. anyways. maybe i'll do some emailing. or read some other pages. i have nothing to do. and i really don't know what to do with myself.
Monday, May 24, 2004
currently listening to: tbs (the telly) what a weekend. friday: once i got home from lab, i changed into my cute new skirt. MAN i looked good. haha. even *i* have to say it! then i packed up my car and headed off to the 'loo. i got to my sister's around 6:15, and shortly after 6:30, we headed off to the place where her wedding dress came from to see the final fitting. she put it on. and WOW. holy mother she looked SO good, it was awesome. after that, we headed off to fairview and shopped for a bit. i still needed a purse for the wedding, and the other two bridesmaids needed shoes. we left with one pair of shoes and one purse. not too bad. once we got home, i called the boy and he came to pick me up coz i didn't want to lose the visitors' spot i managed to snag at my sister's building. he picked me up, we went to blockbuster, rented 'lost in translation' and went back to his house. by this point, in my short skirt, my legs were starting to get cold, so i huddled under a blanket and curled up on the boy. both of us were overly tired, we almost fell asleep on the couch, and then decided upstairs in his room would be way more comfortable. so we transported stuff upstairs and cuddled on the bed. very comfy, even tho we were both cranky and tired. its something totally different to be cranky and tired and still comfortable with someone. very nice :) saturday: we (myself, my sister and don) took off around 8:35ish after loading the car up with lots of wedding stuff (to leave at don's parents' place) and went to pick up their friend whitey. once we got whitey, we headed off on the road to the cottage. wo0t! drive was uneventful. stopped at don's parents to drop off the wedding stuff (including the dress), and then went to port elgin to pick up things that the parents needed up at the cottage. once we cleared port elgin and sauble beach, the cell phone rang (i had my sister's for the duration of the drive in case anything happened). it was mom. the truck was stuck. on the island. right. so we got up to where we park the cars and called again, only to find out the truck was still stuck, they hadn't managed to get it un-stuck. of course, being the fabulous people we are, we loaded up with our stuff and walked across. walked. in a lake. that was *maybe* 10 degrees. it was actually kinda fun. once your legs go numb, you can't feel anything, so the water's just kinda nothing. pretty cool. of course, it waited to start raining until we actually started to walk over. meh, oh well. it wasn't raining too hard, it was just that we were out there for that long, walking across the lake, so we got fairly wet. once we got there, we dropped off our stuff and kinda hung out for a bit. i waited for the feeling to come back into my legs (MAN they were red!) and then we went out to un-stick the truck. quite an adventure. we pushed and managed to get the truck parked on a rock, only after mine and dad's legs got *rather* muddy. haha. so it was back into the cold lake to wash the leg. after that was all said and done, it was time to go up into the house and put on warm clothes. i cuddled under some blankets on the futon and started reading 'hey nostradamus' by douglas coupland. then i fell asleep. man i was cute. slept for a couple of hours, and my sister waited til the last 10 minutes of it to take a picture of me. haha. it was kinda funny, i'll have to get her to email that to me. dinner was delicious, and then it was back onto the futon to read, and then back to the dinner table to play solitaire/sequence with my mom. there was a *lot* of solitaire and sequence on this weekend. pretty fun! sunday: breakfast was delicious, and by noon i was roasting some marshmallows on the fire. mmmm. nothing better than roasted marshmallows, and we got the COOLEST forks for roasting stuff from taryn's friend liz. they work so good. i read a bit more in the afternoon, we played more solitaire and sequence, and then helped some kids get un-stuck from the mud out front. then came the rain. oh, the rain. it rained. and rained. and rained. and rained. and thundered. and rained. and thundered. and rained. we had some wicked thunderstorms (including a clap of thunder that managed to knock the spoon off a table in the kitchen). the path to the outhouse was flooded and wickedly squishy, and the part by the outhouse was actually *flooded*. haha. funny. verandah was wickedly wet (thats what you get with a screened in verandah and no eavestroughing). we had hamburgs for dinner (mmmm bbq) and then it started to rain and thunder again. but then it was nice. we watched the simpsons on the teeny tv at 8, and then mom and i played some more solitaire and sequence and racko. i roasted some more marshmallows around 10, to the point of feeling sick. well, i felt sick before (too much sugary stuff during the day, ugh) so it didn't take much. but DAMN they were good. mmmm. monday: we came home. thats pretty much it. truck kind of got a bit stuck (even in the new mapped out route), but that was probably because everything was SO WET because it rained and stormed again overnight. there were a few claps of thunder that woke me up. like everyone else, as well. that brings us to being home, and getting showered, and starting laundry. now, i've been writing this for a LONG time, and i think im going to go upstairs and reheat leftover casserole from the cottage and watch 21 grams, periodically getting up and coming downstairs and switching over my laundry. (ed note: am watching/listening to muchmusic's 'gonna meet a rock star' with avril lavigne, and she sounds SO STUPID) boy has done SO much work this weekend and drank WAY too much diet coke. something like 4 litres i think, by now? silly boy. he's very tired and still not done everything that needs to be done, and i can't wait to see him and just give him a hug and let him sleep in my bed for a long time. haha. well, enough typing, time to go upstairs and coze up on the couch and watch my movie! hope your respective weekends were as great as mine!
Friday, May 21, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 last night was the best self-esteem boost. wicked. i went to old navy (as i mentioned) to look for the skort thing that they had -- yeah, its really short (i mean *really* short) but there's shorts underneath the skirt, so its all good, really! anyways. the lady i asked about them said that they might not have them, but if they did, they'd be in a certain part of the store. so i went to the back and checked it out and found them. problem. the biggest size they had was a 12. i didn't know if that was going to fit me. so i went and stood in line (clearly they need a better system for changerooms because the lines were SO LONG) and tried it on. it totally fit me. :D like i said. best self esteem boost EVER. so then i picked up a couple of shirts and tried them on too. this cute brown polo-style one looks really good with it. i sware, its the most tight fitting ANYTHING i've ever bought. but jen said i looked really cute, and well, i believe jen because she can't tell a lie to save her life. i was so going to wear it all this morning, but its not quite warm enough for a skirt that short. so we'll have to wait to try it out with the general public. i also got just a plain black tshirt to go with it too. i figure it doesn't hurt to have two tops that'll go with it. so yeah. overall, last night was a lot better than anticipated. the boy and i talked and everything's cool now. so yeah. im excited because i get to see him again tonight, even though we're both wickedly tired and we'll probably be no fun, but i'll manage to be just a *bit* of fun anyways. ;) plus i have to go shopping tonight to pick up part of a wedding gift as well as a purse for the wedding. so i gotta get on those, seeing as how the wedding is, well, next saturday. tomorrow, i drive up north. vroooooom! me and stacy! on the open road! with some stellar cd's! :D its a very exciting deal, and i honestly can't wait. wo0t! anyways. in lab, should probably go back to my work since my incubation is almost over. :)
Thursday, May 20, 2004
currently listening to: alkaline trio | sadie there's something incredibly therapeutic about feet and pavement and headphones pumping music into my ears. sadie g, she's crazy, see? thats what the white coats say... its almost abusive, when you think about it. through anything -- snow, rain, sleet, hail -- not breaking stride even when going up tough hills and keeping your pace....forcing yourself through something that sucks, but finishing it anyways. maybe its not so healthy. but then why do i always feel so much better after doing it? im wickedly too hot right now, but suitably enough to throw on a pair of boy cuts and a tank top and lounge around in my underwear, til my roommate gets home (reason #27 why i still sort of miss living alone). today, i slipped. and i fell. and i almost got sucked in. but i held on, and got back up, and pushed through. its not for me. and thats good enough. my plans for tonight seem to have fallen through. im pondering taking my car to cambridge, and going to old navy, seeing if jen watns to come with me. or maybe even just by myself. i miss that driving, and im wickedly excited for saturday when i can drive myself to the cottage. god im going to look forward to that. anyways, there's this cute skirt/short thing that my sister got there. i really like it. and i really want one. money or no money. so i think i'll go. now miss susan a, you're losing every opportunity to put us all away.... im feeling strong now. much stronger than i spent the afternoon feeling. right now, my music is alternating between 'sadie' and 'everything', and im totally belting 'everything' out at the top of my lungs. sometimes its fun to sing like nothing matters. sometimes, thats all you need. this weekend is my cottage. im SO excited. i'll totally have my cd's and batteries and an mp3 player, and every night i'll head down to the dock and sit there, listening to the water lap on the rocks, watching the reflection of the moon in the waves.....wholly crap i can't wait. anyways. like i said. time for underwear and lounging. i've only got about an hour. :)
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | switchfoot (im really getting sick of this song) its one of those things where im not entirely sure what to think. :S randoms i had the YUMMIEST strawberries today. mmmmmm.....they were SO SO SO GOOD! juicy and sweet and de-lish! mom and dad are coming up to drop off stacy for me today :D stacy and mel, reunited again. you bet im going for a slushie or something tonight! we're going out for dinner too. im excited. i told them they could pick. i get to see the NEW CAR! :D silver mazda tribute. so cute and sporty and fun. im excited. it feels like its been a long day, but its only 3:30. then again, i did get here at 8, so i have been here for 7.5 hours already. which is indeed a long time. sometimes the internet is no fun, because you miss the inflection in peoples' voices, plus you can't read their faces to know what they're actually thinking. so right now, the internet is no fun for me. :i can't wait for katiehood to come home :D even tho i know she won't want to leave her birch. those two are cute. even when you don't see them every day (or like, at all, because they're on the opposite freakin' coast). it seemed like everything that would go wrong, did today. which sucks. speaking of wrong, i have to go and set up my work again. ta, kids.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
currently listening to: saved by the bell on tv the power went out last night. every time the power goes out, i'll wake up when it comes back on, because my printer will turn on, and well, its kind of loud when it starts up and makes noises. if i hadn't woken up, i totally would have slept straight through it. now im going to go make my lunch, check that karrie's up (power outage), and then be excited because today its going to thunderstorm :)
Monday, May 17, 2004
currently listening to: the tv what a fabulously productive sunday, which led into a fabulously unproductive monday, which led to a very content mel :) i saw 'elephant' by gus van sant tonight. its a film thats based on the shootings at columbine high (morbid, i know, but im kind of fascinated with this true-crime stuff). the cinematography was REALLY cool. i mean, uber cool. long, fluid shots through hallways, following students through the movie...it was really well made. kind of slow to take off, but really well made, and i can see why they took the time to develop the beginning a bit. today was good. boy and i went to mall, i got a new purse/bag thingy (now i have a baby dak [and dak = dakine] just like karrie has HER baby dak! and i just realized the gray in my little dakine matches the gray in my backpack! haha. me = loser). i also got the new alkaline trio/one many army split, which i probably shouldn't have bought, but hey, i get paid this week, i can totally justify it. plus, its alkaline, and its new, and i really like it so far. tracks worth mentioning: 'fine without you' and 'sadie'. all in all, gouda day. wish i could just repeat that day over and over again, but alas, i cannot. here's looking forward to thursday, anyways. :)
Sunday, May 16, 2004
currently listening to: the ongoing history of new music (edge 102) wo0t! friday was SO fun. boy and i went to ikea. i got my shelving units (tho it was tough to decide between otto and gorm, i did end up getting gorm), and then we went back to my place, dropped off the stuff, and continued on to waterloo. we met up with my sister, i got her keys to the apt (since i was going to spend the night there, but boy and i were watching a movie first), and then boy and i went to go get a movie. we decided on duplex. it was so cozy laying there in his room. he dropped me off around 2ish and i went straight to bed feeling completely content. saturday morning i got up to go get my hair done. i am back to being partly blonde now. its kind of strange to get used to, because im not used to my hair being this light anymore, but it looks good. me likey a lot. :) i got it cut too, tho he didn't take a lot off (rather, he probably didn't take enough off), but he did thin out the ends a bit which was good. and i have some soft layers as well, which is also rather fabulous. tres expensive, but rather worth it. yesterday afternoon nicole picked me up and we went to the rock n' roll show. well, probably the punk n' emo show. the first band we missed most of, and since i didn't know who they were at the time (they're called 'say anything'), i didn't care enough to listen and formulate an opinion. plus, a large venue like arrow hall is hardly proper for educating oneself about new music. not nearly intimate enough to form a full appreciation for the music. i thought we were just seeing dashboard and thrice. to my GREAT surprise, the GET UP KIDS were there! :D the freakin' GET UP KIDS!!!!!!!! they went on after say anything, i couldn't tell who they were and then the matthew pryor (the lead singer) goes "hi, we're the get up kids and we're from kansas city!". wholly crap. so exciting. i think they played a lot of their new stuff (which i don't know, because i haven't heard the new album), but it was all really good, and i certainly think that album would be worth more than one listen-through. their set was good, they translate very well live, and i enjoyed them. quite a nice surprise, made the show even that much more worth it. after the get up kids, we had a holy moment as we prepared for the arrival of thrice. they came out on stage. and started with 'under a killing moon', followed by 'silhouette'. hi. silhouette is my FAVE thrice song from the new album. SO incredible. LOVED it. i was in heaven right there, and then they started into this softer song, which i didn't recognize until later. it was 'so strange i remember you', TOTALLY one of my faves by thrice, and it was UNBELIEVABLE. i missed the stellar guitar solo at the beginning, but this was all soft and quiet and slow and piano-y and SO wonderful. wow. they kept playing incredible music (the artist in the ambulance, cold cash and colder hearts, and more) and WOW. they're SO SOLID live. i love a band that can play the album and make it sound like the album (with the exception of completely redesigned songs, like the version of so strange i remember you). that indicates the band is just THAT talented that there's no tweaking or anything, no over-mixing, over-compensating for poor players, etc. and that was thrice. even in a large venue, they were unbelievable and they were truly the pinnacle for me at this show. i was mucho excited and happy to see them. dashboard was up next (the headliner), and while i do enjoy dashboard's writing on many levels (because he is a truly talented songwriter), this whole sell-out to the electric format and the full band really just doesn't sit well with me. to be fair, he did do some songs on his acoustics, but there as still a full band, and it really changes the format. there were a couple of songs that were just him on stage with his guitar, and those were fun. i did enjoy dashboard, it just makes me sad to see him sell out like that. plus, he'd be so much better in a smaller venue with just him and a guitar. i'd love to see that someday. i came home last night and totally crashed, i just slept, and it was glorious. 10 hours of sweet sleep. ahhh. this morning, my alarm went off around 10 (tho i had woken up on and off starting around 9) and then i grabbed my remote, turned on the tv, and cuddled with my giant spongebob and watched spongebob. SO FABULOUS. that was the best, sitting there with my giant pillow watching spongebob on tv. it was a good episode too. that pretty much brings us to now, and im in the lab. have to do about an hour's worth of work, and thats it. shouldn't be too bad. i have a 30 min incubation (which is half over) and then a couple of washes, and then back home. going to pick up some food at the grocery store, as im making dinner for the boy tonight. :) and maybe zehrs will have wrenches too. that would be fabulous. tho i wouldn't use my wrench until after dinner, because i promised that he could get some work done before i tickle him to death :P so maybe i'll stop off at canadian tire and see about wrenches, and then head home. then, perhaps, a lazy afternoon on the couch watching 21 grams (really watching it, so i can formulate my opinion on it) and then maybe a nap, and then a fudgsicle, and then who knows what else. i love days like this. :) this week my parents are dropping off a car to me on wed or thurs (VERY exciting!) and then im going up to my cottage on saturday morning! wo0t! speaking of cottage, here is cardinal rule number 101: cardinal rule 101: when i ask you to do something, and you don't want to do it, please say "i don't want to." don't say "i'll look into it and let you know." i don't care if you don't want to do it, but i do care about being unnecessarily led on. thus ends the reading of cardinal rule 101. the coolest cousin ever comes home soon, and that has me very excited, as she is my date to the wedding in just under two weeks' time. going to be a blast! anyhoo....should get back to work (or rather, go to the bathroom because i have to!). have a good sunday, kiddies!
Friday, May 14, 2004
currently listening to: the tv do you ever have days where you get SO incredibly dissatisfied with your ENTIRE wardrobe? i sware i have all these clothes and i don't look good in ANY of them. i bought a jean skirt last year. i can't wear it anymore because it doesn't stay on. now, thats a good feeling, but its SO frustrating because i got ONE summer's wear out of it. and i paid for it. and the rest of my clothes? ugh. i just think they all look like crap.
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
the move is done. well, all things are in the new place. thats what i mean by done. the bed is assembled, the desk is set up, the computer is set up, and i have crap EVERYWHERE. i've done some unpacking. but i don't think i can do much more until i get some shelves from ikea or something. because i have NO SHELF SPACE. none. zero. zip. nada. zilch. i have a monstrous headache. and im rather tired. and dirty. and gross. and i should go check my laundry and see if i can't organize my crap somehow. currently listening to: the hum of the computer i've always wanted to move while feeling like throwing up. looks like today is my big chance. :(
Monday, May 10, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 waiting for yeast to grow is less fun than watching paint dry. for example: you can watch paint dry with friends. you and your friends can chat, hang out, play games, do lots of different things. when waiting for yeast to grow, you can only do one thing: wait for the frickin' yeast to grow. gah. he makes my stomach go all flippy, and i really like it :) (and no, it wasn't because of the 'bad' pizza). he makes me feel like nothing else matters but me, and him, and us. he drives me completely crazy, in the best way possible. i am so completely comfortable around him it doesn't even make sense. everything about him is so soft, comfortable and cozy. and thus ends our dose of cheese for the day. :P
Sunday, May 09, 2004
currently listening to: muchmusic so far, here's what i've packed:
that leaves:
and im sick of this list now, so im not putting anything else on it. hahaha. all in all, i'd say i haven't done a bad job. we're going to have to make MANY trips today, but we can do it. i owe a huge thanks to the boy for his help :) anyways. im going to go chill for a bit because im sick of packing and have been going hardcore since i got back to guelph. lates!
Saturday, May 08, 2004
currently listening to: cbc radio there's nothing like stepping on a scale and realizing that you've surpassed the awful weight loss plateau to make you feel like the skinniest person in the world (even tho you're far from being that). :D edit: im not sure i read the scale right anymore. but i feel fabulous anyways. :) what a completely fabulous 12 hours of sleep. there's a thunderstorm going on outside, and i love it. nothing better than the sound of thunder. mmmm. im back to thinking about buying a domain. don't know what it'd be, but im thinking about it. it could be hosted here or here. the gold/platinum plans at liverack would give me moveable type for free. do you carry over comments with moveable type? i don't know. webserve.ca is cheaper, however, and i like cheaper. blogger's alright, i've used it for four years (wholly crap i've had this page for FOUR YEARS). i move on tuesday. sunday will be spent packing and making trips over to the new place, and then watching the survivor finale at the old place. very exciting. i also have to head into the lab for a bit to set up for an experiment. fun. monday will be lab, cleaning, and the once-through with the landlord (since he apparently thinks im the type who will put fists through walls and cause all sorts of damage just to screw him in the end. thanks a lot). tuesday is the 'moving of big things' day, this includes my bed, desk, and well, me. then i'll be in the new place, setting up everything (you know computer will be one of the first things that gets set up, i only hope that its not hard to set up the internet with rogers on it, otherwise i'll have to call in some reinforcements). so setting up the furniture, etc. i want to go to ikea SO BADLY because i will need a shelving unit. i'll just have to con someone into taking me to burlington some time. haha. third watch was INCREDIBLE last night! WHOLLY CRAP! much better than the rather disappointing season finale of the OC and friends. my aunt linda sent me spongebob ankle socks, with spongebob's head as pom poms on the ankles! GOOD LORD THEY'RE FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need to go shower and change out of my pyjamas and help my mother set up for today. im going to make chocolate chip cookies tonight, hopefully i'll be full and not eat too much raw dough, but i just know i won't be able to pass it up. cookie dough is the best, especially from this recipe that my mom has. well, i should go now. and be clean and helpful. ta!
Friday, May 07, 2004
Thursday, May 06, 2004
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
currently listening to: edge 102 | blink 182 so sleepy. lab work is ok. doing what needs to be done and going home to work on presentation for joint lab meeting tomorrow. will also practice the song for the wedding a bit -- played it yesterday, it actually didn't sound too bad. went to record it, but it turns out that somehow i don't have my recording software anymore. boourns. and i can't find it to download it again, and for whatever reason, i don't have the .exe install file. damn. now i need to find NEW recording software. the move is happening next tuesday. we've got a date. that leaves me sunday/monday to pack and tuesday is garbage day, so i can just put everything out then and not have to worry about it! fab. the leafs lost :( very sad indeed. but at least now im not torn over whether to watch friends and survivor or game 7. because now there is no game 7. easy decision. im getting a SLUSHIE on thursday and im very excited. its my first slushie of the season, i hope 7-11 has good flavours! the first slushie always tastes the best. mmmm. this entry is now full of enough random goodness that i can go do some other lab stuff, or maybe grab a muffin since my tummy is so hungry. guess i should have eaten dinner last night. doh.
Monday, May 03, 2004
currently listening to: k's choice | live for real why yes, winamp, i would love to listen to this song right now. so fabulous. soothing. cozy. easily one of the greatest songs ever. mmm. in other news, i hate this presentation. but i love this song. :)
Sunday, May 02, 2004
currently listening to: stem :) yes. there was a leafs game today. and yes, i usually write about leafs games. however, today's game was not even actual hockey played by the leafs, thus, i am not posting about it. i will, however, say once again that antropov is a complete tool and should not be allowed on the ice during playoff games. fabulous weekend. hot tub = GLORIOUS. man alive i felt absolutely wonderful afterwards, and clearly should have become horizontal and reclined because standing up too WAY too much energy. we had pizza for dinner -- lu (one of the other bridesmaids) made the dough. FABULOUS! pizzas were wicked tasty, but maybe thats because they were made in the DREAMIEST kitchen ever! *drool* beautiful stone fireplace in the middle with a bread oven above, large stainless steel stove with two ovens, griddle and elements....then on one part of the wall, we had a cappuccino machine (installed into the wall), and below that, a warming drawer and two freezer drawers. underneath the island, a cooling cabinet (i think it was refrigerated?) with horizontal wine storage (and im talking like, 50 bottles)....they had a walk-in refrigerator, dishwasher with digital display, small flat-screen sony tv with satellite receiver (for the sole purpose of playing music in the kitchen on those digital music channels)....then, beautiful windows overlooking the most picturesque stone ruins and a beautiful countryside. there were also double doors leading off to a deck with fabulous hot tub and pool, and then to the left of that was a beautiful garden, complete with pond. there are also small trees with little white christmas lights (and we all know how much i *love* little white christmas lights...mmm...) that was just the kitchen area. the master bedroom (with ensuite) is also on the first floor, as well as dining room with bar (and what a well stocked bar! haha), a sitting room, and a two piece bathroom. upstairs, we have two guest bedrooms (one with at least a double bed in it and i think there was a tv in it as well? and the other with two twin beds). there's a three piece bathroom, and then the theatre. yes. theatre. im talking two rows of four la-z-boy recliners (with cupholders in arm rests), and of course the back row is raised a bit so you can see over the front row's heads. 72 inch (!!!!!!!!!!) tv, satellite, dvd, vcr and surround sound. i almost drooled. such a fabulous room, it makes watching tv seem like the biggest and greatest luxury ever in life. whoa. there's also a guest house on the property as well. i don't know what was in that, but given the rest of the house, im sure its incredibly fabulous. we watched 'calender girls' and 'love actually' (completely appropriate for a hen night, well chosen movies) and ate too much food, imbibed some alcohol and relaxed in the hot tub, scented with some green apple hot tub oil. the only thing that was less than desireable was the weather, and we didn't really have to deal with that because we were inside the whole time. oh, and the fact that i hate being a girl. and im excited to be home to be with my advil. mmmmadvil. and we'll leave it at that. haha. so fabulous. i want a house like that. BADLY. haha. anyways. now im back, im doing laundry, and im going to start working on my presentation for this thursday, since, you know, i should start it and all. this would be my cue to end. ta!
Saturday, May 01, 2004
currently listening to: pearl jam | jeremy sometimes there's no explaining why things happen at the times that they do....why you can stay up til 4am chatting with someone that you probably don't know very well, and there's *certainly* no rhyme or reason for feeling like this.... i can't explain it. i really can't. but why bother trying to explain something when it feels so good without knowing anyways? :) in other news, im off to owen sound for the weekend....fabulous girls weekend complete with pizza, pop, chips, movies, and a hot tub. mmmmfabulous. very exciting as i'll be with some wonderful girls... and on that note, time to go and finish packing. have a good weekend!
Friday, April 30, 2004
Libra (Sept. 23 — Oct. 23) There's no point thinking you could step in and play centre for the Leafs. Some expectations might appear a little unrealistic but nobody is perfect, so don't be so demanding on yourself. why does this a) seem all to appropriate for me and b) make me feel just a bit better? ever have one of those days where you just want to throw in the towel and walk away from EVERYTHING? welcome to my friday. please, i'd love it if you'd tell me that im not making an efficient use of my time. even after i told how busy i am with other things to do (wedding, moving, presentation, etc) and then you say "well, then, its more important to structure your time more appropriately and effectively in the lab." the worst part is, i know he's right. i think. i do what i can. but when i said i was going to transform on monday, he goes "well, why didn't you set up to do it last night?" and i totally could have. that didn't even OCCUR to me. still, its not my fault that the project YOU gave ME to do has a lot of wait times. i can't do anything to make yeast grow faster, so please, don't think that i can, and don't expect that i can. transfections take 48 hours, and there's NOTHING i can do to speed that up either. besides, do you know what its like to work for someone who doesn't give a rat's ass about your life outside of the lab and how busy it is? i do. let's chat, shall we? fuck. its the kind of day where i just want to hang my head, go home to my cold apartment, curl up on the couch with a blanket and stay there and never ever leave. leaving is when you let people down, leaving is when you 'don't use your time effectively', leaving is when you screw everything up. its the kind of day where you want to go home and just bury yourself in someone's chest and stop caring about everything except for that moment and the two of you. to just feel like you're not alone. its strange how just being held can make it feel like nothing else matters. i hate feeling like this. but today is one of those days where i just can't help it. im tired and im grumpy and yes, im a bit whiny. but its not even noon yet and my day thus far has been one of the worst ever. im spent. i had the strangest, most vivid dreams last night.....VERY weird. 1) there was a leak in the roof of my parents house. "but melissa," i hear you say, "how is that any different from when water poured into your bedroom at home?" well. it was in a spot that didn't leak before, and it wasn't just a leak, it was GUSHING. 2) crazy weird old trucker guy who tried to pick me up on icq yesterday (and strangely went offline when i lied and said i had a boyfriend -- heh) came to karrie's house (i was living there, had been all moved in) and was still trying to pick me up. he was strong and scary and i was completely terrified but still managed to get him out of the house and lock the door (of which we had two -- and it wasn't like a screen door/regular door....they were two regular doors. weird.. 3) i was hanging out with a friend and suddenly we had to go to the hospital (only it wasn't a hospital, it was very homey like, almost like a hospice but not) because she was pregnant and suddenly was having a spontaneous abortion (ie losing the baby). all my relatives were there (strange) and for whatever reason, she wasn't in a room for all of this, we were all hanging out in a lounge-type area with those funky longer than usual ikea couches/beds (you know, the really cool ones). i TOLD you they were weird. and SO VIVID it was scary. like whoa.
Thursday, April 29, 2004
i totally just missed all of friends because i was giving computer support over the phone to my mom. (me = smrt). i did however, see ross and rachel kissing at the end. can someone fill me in? edit: chris martin is SO incredibly hot in coldplay's 'yellow' video. currently listening to: thornley | so far so good i just realized that my life is totally not in my hands and there's nothing i can do about it and i HATE IT. #$@#$@#$*%&#@$@#*$&@ end meltdown. in other news, i need to learn how to take a compliment, and i know that, but i still can't do it. oh well. you'll have to accept me as i am. :P currently listening to: lostprophets | sway how gloriously and fabulously unfair. there is a wonderfully silver jetta TDI (with sunroof) parked outside my house. and its NOT MINE! :(
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
currently listening to: lostprophets | make a move dear wade belak, i think i love you. sincerely, melissa WHOLLY CRAP. that was un-friggin-believable! TWO GOALS in TWO MINUTES! (or some reasonable time estimation thereof). by mogilny and ponikarovsky nonetheless, both BEAUTIFUL goals made by two guys who have been silent during the playoffs. maybe it was the home crowd, who knows -- but that game was AWESOME. oh, and how much did i LOVE 3 philly guys in the penalty box at ONE TIME? mucho. belak was throwing checks around like they were goin' out of style, and it was FABU. also some really great checks by mccabe (sigh). i never knew i could love hockey this much. (my sister's probably thinking i've been abducted and brainwashed at this point in time). the game was enjoyed with a couple pints of keith's and some wings (that second batch was SO not 'medium' -- i thought my mouth had totally burned off, yeesh) and the hottest girl in town. it was awesome fun, if only she wasn't going away to work we could watch the leafs in the final round! (ha. i dream.) oh, the worst part of the game? when that chick with the big boobs got more applause in the bar than the maple leafs did. LWTF. let's all pretend we're morons, shall we? at any rate, game = fabulous. mel = tired. i think i should post for 'puck you' and head off to bed. nite kiddies! |
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my amazon wishlist reading: staring at the lights again adrienne: non-fiction puck you: nhl playoffs 2004 jaked on green beers decordas that kind of girl kates danielle thebrenda theniki mr good the clinic swimgal's splashes love me, hate me.... everything's coming up robin sneaky pete one big rant homestarrunner rathergood.com threebrain.com found magazine makeoutclub chart magazine pollstar breathing: sign my guestbook view my guestbook photo album university of guelph the shape of punk to come musing: coheed and cambria alkaline trio jimmy eat world mae my chemical romance alexisonfire strike anywhere at the drive-in thursday ben folds / five the juliana theory finch brand new yellowcard esthero finger eleven incubus system of a down goldfinger face to face sparta silverchair radiohead weezer the weakerthans k's choice vagrant records drive-thru records victory records
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